| home sweet home? |
[Aug. 16th, 2007|10:07 am] |
well, i'm home. and i realized on the drive back that i start classes again on tuesday. next tuesday. i'm so ready but at the same time i'm not sure if i'm ready. at this point, i really like the idea of just throwing myself back into classes and homework and work and taking care of kurt and having no time leftover for anything else. i don't want to think about anything else anymore. it's just easier that way. my mom will be fine, everything else will be fine, life will continue on as it always has. but, as always, i'm nervous about my classes and worried that i'm not smart enough to pull off this chemistry business. i love chemistry. it's interesting, it's fascinating, it's just so cool but it's really freaking hard and i seem to have lost everything i knew over the summer. blah blah blah.
on a completely different note, yesterday my mom had forgotten some of her clothes hanging in the closet in the hotel room and kurt and i had to walk back to get them from the hospital. the cute desk guy offered to take us up to the room to get them. when we got back to the hospital i was jokingly telling my sister about how it was alright that i had to walk all the way back there because i got to hang out with the hot desk guy (and it was, it made it worth it, i'm easy to please like that sometimes). i don't even know how the subject was brought up but i had a conversation with her about boyfriends and kurt informed us that he doesn't want me to have one. want to know why? the cute, naive little-kid reason why? because, he says he hasn't had someone around since he was three (when josh died) and so he doesn't think he needs anyone. my response: "uh sure, but i do." hate to burst your bubble, honey, but this is more about me than about you. of course anyone i date/have a relationship with is going to have to like him and be okay with the fact that i have an eleven-year-old son but that's not my only priority in the matter.
anyway, i'm just wasting time before we leave for the baseball game for work. our agency always goes to see a local baseball game every summer and today is the day. it used to be an afternoon of drinking and somewhat raucous behavior (we give a lot of shit around here) but the last couple of years have been pretty low-key. i'll be up for a mike's hard lemonade, some knitting, and a lot of water. then i'm going to the cell phone store down there to see if they can fix my phone. i had no service the entire time we were gone this week. none. when i called to complain i was told that my software just needs to be flashed and they don't do that here but they do it in fargo. she said it'll fix my other error message too. hmm, and why couldn't they have told me this months ago?? i'm trying not to be pissed but it's kind of difficult. |
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